For many years, I had hoped to just be an ordinary girl, attempting to live an ordinary life. I wanted to grow up in a loving home, find love, have kids, have some high end job, and live happily ever after.
I guess at some point, you can't expect life to give you everything you want. But I was determined as hell to make it happen.
The loving home part...pfft. Yeah, that didn't happen. I did find love, after a couple of attempts and a big broken heart. But, to be fair, that's typical, so I couldn't expect to be an exception.
The job part...well...that sort of happened. But I did get my kids and we are all certainly still trying to find our happy ever after.
What happened? Why am I making this a blog that God knows who can read? One name...Rachel Hollis. She has created and drafted a book that drastically changed my outlook on life. My life isn't changed yet. But, I know now, I am in control of my life. I also know that what everyone else thinks about be is none of my business. Those that have read her book, will understand that pun clearly.
Rachel taught me that I am unique, I am in control, and I can move on from what happened in the past. I have never been one to just leave the past behind. I have always found that as a flaw of mine. I hope creating this blog, talking about what crafted me in to the woman I am and desire to become will help me to be who I truly want to be for myself, my husband, and my children. I also hope this will find someone that needs to hear my story. Someone that struggles with rejection, anxiety, caring what others think--someone that wants to squash their past and make a new life for themselves.
I have no clue how to make this the most interesting thing anyone wants to read. I fear the vulnerability I am allowing in all of this. But I also fear that someone out there in the world has the same exact problem and they are giving up!
I hope you stick with me. There will be some bumpy rides. Some tears. Some laughs. And probably some head scratching.
Enjoy the ride!
I guess at some point, you can't expect life to give you everything you want. But I was determined as hell to make it happen.
The loving home part...pfft. Yeah, that didn't happen. I did find love, after a couple of attempts and a big broken heart. But, to be fair, that's typical, so I couldn't expect to be an exception.
The job part...well...that sort of happened. But I did get my kids and we are all certainly still trying to find our happy ever after.
What happened? Why am I making this a blog that God knows who can read? One name...Rachel Hollis. She has created and drafted a book that drastically changed my outlook on life. My life isn't changed yet. But, I know now, I am in control of my life. I also know that what everyone else thinks about be is none of my business. Those that have read her book, will understand that pun clearly.
Rachel taught me that I am unique, I am in control, and I can move on from what happened in the past. I have never been one to just leave the past behind. I have always found that as a flaw of mine. I hope creating this blog, talking about what crafted me in to the woman I am and desire to become will help me to be who I truly want to be for myself, my husband, and my children. I also hope this will find someone that needs to hear my story. Someone that struggles with rejection, anxiety, caring what others think--someone that wants to squash their past and make a new life for themselves.
I have no clue how to make this the most interesting thing anyone wants to read. I fear the vulnerability I am allowing in all of this. But I also fear that someone out there in the world has the same exact problem and they are giving up!
I hope you stick with me. There will be some bumpy rides. Some tears. Some laughs. And probably some head scratching.
Enjoy the ride!
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